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Note; Again, this is one of those "not so happy-go-lucky" -stories, definatly not. This could be said to be somehow depresing, but you can find beauty from it, if you please so. Abyways, if you dont's like, then don't read or complain'bout it afterwards.

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Painlessly broken

Pain... There's always been a pain inside of me... I didn't know what it was, nor could I get rid of it. But it didn't matter, 'cause I always had you by my side...

You were like an angel, holding my heart from the very beginning. I was ready to die for you, if it ever would've been nessecary... Desperate to make you feel better when you were sad, overly happy as you smiled. You were my whole world... But you also had to grow up.

You started to get new friends and spent less time with me. Then suddenly, I noticed you didn't need me anymore... And I was happy'bout it, but also so very, very sad. 'Cause as I watched you slowly abandon me, the pain became worse than ever...

Like a deep wound, aching hollow where my heart should've been...

Finally, I knew exactly what it was, now wishing I wouldn't. It was the fear... The fear of losing you. You'd always had my heart. And as you left,  that heart was ripped right out of my chest, leaving only that bleading wound behind...

"Unfixably broken"...

Now I know what it means. It means you've lost a part of you. And heart's a really important organ to us, 'cause without it, we can't live. I lost my heart to you, that only reason for my existence...

But was I sad? No. I was grateful for that... 'Cause now I can just give up. I don't have to fight anymore... Since, no matter how much I loved you, we were never meant to be together.

It feels likeI'm floating in water... Deep, dark water. There's nothing else, only me... Finally everything's alright, I don't have to suffer anymore... I don't need to be afraid, 'cause no one can take this beautiful, numb feeling away from me now.

Not even you...

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Okay, so this's pretty old stuff I wrote some time ago, but there's something in it that I really like... It sounds really depressing, but I hope no one minds that all too much, 'cause the point in it is... well, it's somehow really beautiful, those kinda feelings!

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