Suntuubi-palvelussa käytetään evästeitä. Palvelua käyttämällä hyväksyt evästeiden käytön. Lue lisää. OK

Note: Okay, so this drabble here's taken from a shot I wrote some years ago (don't remember when exactly, but no matter) and it's based on one of my character's (named Evelyn) diary. It's probably gonna come in the story as well, not sure, but if you liked this, then of course comment and I shall put the rest of it there (Yes, indeed this's like a clip from one of the longer stories in the Other...-file, so please read!).


Scared Of Life

    Today was no different from all the others. The kids in school made fun of me for being different again, for being what they call "emo", 'cause I dress in all black and listen to what they say're depressing things and always write in this diary that I keep to myself and I just don't know why. I don't understand what they say... I'd just want to be normal, but I know that's too much to ask for and I don't think I'd know how to be normal. Since I really haven't ever been...

    I know I shouldn't be scared of the truth, of what really exists in the world. They always say I shouldn't, that there's nothing to be afraid in it. But I just don't know what to do anymore and that scares me, 'cause the world I see is like a black abyss and that abyss is so deep I'm afraid I'll end up getting lost. I mean, it feels like it's going to swallow me whole at any second and I've no defence against it... And I'm so scared of it, I can't help it.

    I'm always choking to my own tears and the air and this life, they all choke me and I'm so weak. I don't know how to deal with it, this thing or feeling that makes my muscles weak and mind foggy. I cant think straight and it's like I haven't slept in ears and I'm so tired all the time. I'm so tired of feeling this way, 'cause it's like there's no cure for it...

    It just always hurts and I don't know how to stop it... I want you to stop it, I need you to stop it, before it's too late. Someone needs to take care of me, and I want it to be you, Riku. That's what I'd want to say to him, Diary, but I just don't know how... Or when. I never want to become a burden to him. Never... 'Cause that's just break my heart, I couldn't handle it.

    I'm so glad I've you, 'cause I know I can tell you anything.

    Love, Evelyn.


So here it is, just a little shortcut from what that really is... But you might get the point, that Evelyn is a very sensitive character, a total crybaby. But at least he admits that himself... (yes, he's a boy, little "prettyboy" or whatever) He's overly scared of everything, but then again also somehow curious. Nearly a polar opposite of his twin brother, Edwin. I think they're both just lovely, exspacially Evelyn...

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